Thursday, June 28, 2012

Wellllll I think I jumped the gun by going completely off my meds. The numbers started going up a little so I guess my body wasn't ready to do it on its own. Still haven't started exercising because my hives came back. They get worse when I exercise. But when I go for a 30 minute walk they don't get bad...so I'm sort of using them as an excuse to still not exercise. Sometimes it's frustrating to read the posts on the Blood Sugar Solution website where people are all happy and excited that they've completely stuck to the plan for months on end and that they're down 40 lbs and have completely reversed their diabetes. Because it makes it seem so easy. But it's so not! I have to model this to what works for me. Last week I ate a dark chocolate bar four days in a row. I wanted to and I felt defiant. Then I saw how it affected my numbers, and I felt regret. Then I got over it and moved on. If there's one thing that isn't going to work for me in this process of change, it's blame and judgement of myself. When there's obstacles, I have to take them and accept them and remember it's all part of the process. This can't be an all-or-nothing journey...all-or-nothing never works!

1 comment:

  1. EFFING HIVES!!!!! Let me know whenever you want to go on a walk in Forest Park or some shit.

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