End of Week Three!

Some Things

I was going to do a video blog but I'm feeling sort of camera-shy. I'm hopeful about where I'm at. BUT last night I did go and buy a bag of Olive Oil Popcorn from Trader Joe's and ate almost the whole bag. I had PMS and was starving, which is not an excuse. It messed my blood sugars up a lot. So, none of that any longer while I'm doing this. Well, really probably I can't do that kind of binging ever if I want to stay away from blood sugar issues long-term. Unless it's a broccoli binge. But it's really the behavior that's a problem, not the food, when I binge. I hate even calling it binging because I feel like it gives the image of me rifling savagely through my cupboards and fridge for long periods of time, eating whatever I possibly can. But there's all different levels of it. Maybe I'm still somewhat in denial. Sally commented on here reminding me of a program in Portland called Be Nourished, where they offer counseling and nutrition guidance. I want to re-visit it soon. I took a training there and really loved the staff because they were very real. If I'm going to practice healthy eating habits, I'm going to have to re-teach myself how to eat mindfully.

The mini-fridge in my office at work is helping lots. I don't feel as panicky about how I'm going to get good food prepared. And I don't care if people think it's weird that it's there.

On the way home from work I was fantasizing about all the things I can eat when this is over. Then I had to remind myself, this will never be over! I will not be able to eat the way I did if I want to stay healthy and no longer have diabetes. Then I threw a fit in my mind and then I got over it and looked for more information. Phewsh. This page from the Blood Sugar Solution website finally helped clarify some things in terms of what I can eat after the six weeks. What I have to remember is that my body is re-setting. My metabolism and insulin sensitivity will be re-set, but until then, I need to stay rigid.

Two-Week Reward

Friday I got my nails done for my two-week reward. Heather's tiny foot and my huge hand.