Unplanned Dinner

I just ate an impromptu dinner at the neighbors'... Brian made an amazing brussels sprout steak salad. It had Parmigiano-Reggiano and currants. I am supposed to eat neither of those things. But it was the most delicious. I enjoyed it more than I maybe ever would have since I've not eaten cheese or dairy for five weeks. I just wanted to. It was the only thing they served that I could eat; there were rolls, corn on the cob, cookies and banana bread. I brought garlic-stuffed olives since it was last-minute. I probably should have just declined the invite, knowing I'd be faced with amazing food I couldn't eat. My rationale was, "I just have one more week." That's not gonna work...especially if I'm changing my whole way of eating for life. I will have to learn how to ask for what I need (for example, I could have asked what they were making for dinner). I need have a food plan all the time. That is really. Really. Difficult. It's fine when I'm making all my own food all the day long every day. But when stuff like this comes up, it's hard. Dr. Hyman's book alone isn't going to be a great post-plan guide. I plan to call that dietician this week so I can catch her up on what's been going on and figure out how she can support me best. Also I'm going to my doctor's clinic diabetes education group that meets monthly on Thursday. I can share what I've been doing and maybe get some helpful feedback. This plan has been a jumping off point...the time after that will be more difficult. If I want to stay off medication and completely reverse my diabetes, I have to be willing to continue to have healthy food guidelines and accept that certain things I may never be able to eat again...especially if I'm a prone sugar addict. Ugh it feels daunting. But one day at a time. I mean, this is what I eventually, hopefully will be able to maintain--a healthy balance.

I hope to get up at 8 tomorrow to walk. In my funk this weekend I bought new work-out clothes  (smaller sizes!) So I better start using them.